naptime

when i was in my early 20s, i used to be able to stay up until all hours of the night and get to my classes first thing in the morning. now that i'm in my 30s (ugh, just saying that still makes me cringe), those days are long gone. i feel like i can hardly function without sleep.

all this week i've been staying up late to finish the photobook project that i've been working since last year (obviously not continuously because it wouldn't have taken this long if i had). my deadline was today since that was when the coupon expired, and in typical glo fashion, i waited until sunday to devote some solid time to it. and when i didn't finish sunday, i knew i had set myself up for a sleepless week.

starting monday, i probably put in an average of 3 hours a night on the project after work and dinner, which means i was staying up until about 1 a.m. for the past 3 nights. the exhaustion really hit me today, which suddenly made me feel very old. it was weird to accept that my body has aged just in the last 10 years and there's a noticeable difference. it's almost alittle bit sad.

i was always in such a rush to grow up, being a serious child, carrying the weight of my firstborn "duties" on my shoulders.. but these days what i seem to want is to slow it all down. that would be the best advice i could give a child, if asked today: be young, be stupid, enjoy your youth. you'll only have it once.

Tonight
We are young
So let's set the world on fire
We can burn brighter
Than the sun
-- fun.