nothin' but a number

i am a twilight freak.  i know that this obsession seems alittle silly for a woman my age, but i don't care.  yes, i'm referring to the book-to-movie franchise that is targeted toward teenagers.  yes, i've read all the books.  my best friend bought me the series a couple christmases ago and i finished them before the new year.  i've also watched and own all the movies.  and i was invited into an exclusive twilight "club" the minute one of my coworkers discovered my interest.  yes, we actually discuss elements of the books and have movie screening parties. 

for those in my office that didn't know this tidbit about me before today, they definitely know now.  this morning i found my cube full-out decorated with a twilight-theme, complete with quotes from the movie and even a very red, very shiny apple.  the birthday celebration didn't end there.  lunch ended with an 'eclipse' cake that we all had alot of fun with.  i felt like a kid again, carefree and giddy.  i think that is what is so attractive about the story -- it's a chance to be young again, to remember the feeling of falling in love for the first time, to recall what it was like to make decisions and mistakes. 

my coworkers have known that i've been dreading turning 30 for quite some time so lightening things up really eased my anxiety about entering the next decade of my life.  people over 30 have assured me that it is just another birthday, another number; and now that it's right around the corner, i can see their point.  i think my initial apprehension stemmed from the perception that 30 is a milestone birthday, the BIG one, a sign that says "I AM HERE" and no longer "just a kid out of college" or "fresh blood" (like my twilight association?).  it's hard to imagine that 10 years ago i was a sophomore in college, had not even reached the legal drinking age, and had absolutely no idea what i wanted to do, let alone what i was even doing.  not like the latter has changed much, but my early 20s compared to my late 20s were miles apart.  if anything, 25 should be the milestone birthday.  tomorrow's just another day, and i doubt that i'll wake up feeling any differently than i did waking up today.

so what does a 29-going-on-30-year-old think today?  forget the age, it's never too late to have alittle fun.